Missing Daddy

I start missing my dad when Iwan left me alone.. i didnt know who should i turn to.. i miss him alot...
my dad left my mom, my younger sister and me... hehang himself in the house.. i was so sad.. i just cant explain ....

My Dad died about 1 year ago. It's still so surreal. It has never still really hit me full force. He hang himself in my house when there was no one that day. so it was t entirely unexpected but it did happen really fast. And now that he is gone I think of all those things he did with me and I'm so sad. I wish I could go back in time and relive some of those moments. At the same time I want to feel it, I need to cry, to wail to the sky but it only hits me in waves, an of course even though it does it really doesn't give me some sort of relief. And I wonder why I even yearn for it. I guess crying feels natural, but the emptiness is still there. I worry about my Mom but dont really know what to say.. I miss him so much I can Only imagine how she feels. But seeing what everyone else has written, and knowing we are not alone. There is something to that. Thank you. I hope what I say helps you as what others have said helped me.


I just miss my dad...

A dad is someone who
wants to catch you before you fall
but instead picks you up,
brushes you off,
and lets you try again.

A dad is someone who
wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead lets you find your own way,
even though his heart breaks in silence
when you get hurt.

A dad is someone who
holds you when you cry,
scolds you when you break the rules,
shines with pride when you succeed,
and has faith in you even when you fail...

I dun expect him to post about me at his FB Timeline

I dun expect anything.. i dun need anything.
i dun expect him to post anything about me at his Facebook timeline.
coz i know... he wont do it.. ya.,. gangster life, gangster life that will ruin his life one day...
 i really dun want this to happen ... but i know... one day, gangster life will make him regret.
 We have been for years..
and he did promise to me about getting out of that group ..
but now? nothing...    

all that are just sweet talks... No one could understand me... my life... my stories...

I have no one but myself. my soul..


hetty wrote on 26 january 2012

A Trip To Universal Studio Singapore

I went to Universal Studio Singapore (USS) last month, in 14 april 2013 to be exact. And I got too excited! Because you know what, I could finally meet up with Pinocchio, the Madagascar, Shrek, and even elmo!
Well, my trip was actually was plan by my love , anyway.  And I was like, should I got or not?  But then I don’t know what got into me and I said yes. So here we are.
I spent one day full in Universal Studio with him..,

My favorite one is Shrek Adventure. Here, you’ll be sitting on a moving chair in a theater watching an exciting Shrek tale. And you’ll be sprayed with water and even experience a spider tickling.

And here comes The Lost World..

We rode the Canopy Flyer and Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure. Well, I have to admit that Canopy Flyer really got me. It’s a flying swing ride where you’ll be sitting with your legs dangling and then you’ll fly just like a bird. The ride was faster than what I expected, you know, I thought it would be a slow leisure flight, but it’s not. It will twist you like crazy.
 

Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure is also great. You’ll be sitting (with belt) in a tube ride and then begin your journey through the Jurassic jungle slowly. But then at the end of the ride, you’ll meet T-Rex and experience a quick drop and you might get soaked at the end, just like I did. Yes, I’m totally wet. You know what? The guy sitting next to me was wearing his rain coat, which I thought it was so ridiculous. But then, at the end of the ride, I became a little bit jealous of him as he’s completely dry.

 

Then we went to Ancient Egypt.

The main ride within this zone is Revenge of the Mummy, an Egyptian-themed indoor roller coaster. As you enter the building, you will walk through a narrow maze decorated with Egyptian artifacts. It was quite dark in there but once you are seated, you’ll begin having a surprising journey with a great story telling. The ride involves a backward motion, twisting and spinning and actually I don’t know what exactly they do to us, but really, this is a must ride if you happen to visit USS. If I had more time, I would definitely be back on board again and again!

I obviously loveeee Ancient Egypt! Well, I’ve never been to Egypt before, but this zone really has so many amazing HUGE statues and artifacts. It just looks so authentic to me.

Then we headed to the Sci-Fi City.

Then we took the Transformer ride, and I have to say… this ride is beyond fantastic, I swear! It takes the 3D ride into the next level. It’s not just as simple as having a stuff popping off the screen in front of you. It’s much more than that.

Here, you’ll ride a futuristic vehicle through an amazing transformer world and then you’ll be moving from one 3D scene to another. This ride has so many bumps, backward motion, fog, sound effect, and even a ‘falling’ effect. It was fantastic and sooo real that I felt I was really involved in the transformer battle. There was one moment when you are suddenly whipped into an office building and you crash the tables and then you crashed into the window and fall to the street and the transformer saved you. It was sooo fast, it has a great senses of speed, direction and turn and everything happens so fast!

I enjoy my day..
to my love, thank for this special treat.

 

Dissappointed

Today, some truely make me dissappointed... Too stress and i didnt know what to do next .
Speechless ..
I feel like this is just the death throes of a doomed relationship. The end days are hard. People get emotional. But the writing was on the wall before he ever PM  anybody, and it's just not about his transgressions. It's just not working out.

And his reaction to it not working out is not doing anything to convince me that he's a healthy partner in the first place.. Why not cut him loose now, in no uncertain terms, rather than just ignore him? As emotionally unhealthy as he seems to be, he doesn't need the help of being strung along.

im justtoo dissappointed when he Pm Ira on facebook yesterday.. i have been crying and iwan just ignore me just like that.. without saying any sorry.. i was hurt... too much hurt...

I thought it all gonna end there... i thought its gonna be the last we are going to meet each other but ...
i called him, and i cry after sending his items back.. i dun know...  why am i crying after what he have did to me...

he told me that he loves me...

we settle down and talk.. sort things out... and he say , its just a friends between him and ira.. i was like dying.. i wanna ddddddddddie.......

 

Im hurt...

Hetty Coquettish wrote on 5th January 2013